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I must vent.  Apparently not just me.

This too shall pass.

P-U-S-H ... Push ... 'No'

It is happening again.  Is it cyclical or some other mystery of the mind?  I get tired.  I get angry.  I intentionally push and push.  The relief comes when the separation occurs and I am freed from the acts that lead to negativity.

This is a pattern.  Too many incidents to count.  But each time there is relief and freedom and no regret.

At some point I get exhausted from 

The draining of my talents.  

The draining of my "favors." 

The draining of my time.

The draining of my energy.

I push against the drain, push to stop the seepage of my equilibrium.  

No I cannot teach you to sew, to use Excel, to make invitations, to .....  

No I will not call in a favor because you have not expended the energy to build your own work relationships.

No. No. No.

I have just enough energy to push you away.  I can.  So I will.  And I just did.

But wait - instead I will learn to say 'no' and I will NO longer be drained.  NO longer be angry.

Thank you for helping me find an alternative solution.

I feel better, as it should be.

Matters of The Heart ...

My story tonight is about a Princess who is spending far too much time explaining to people why she is in the company of a frog.  The frog is a charming and kind gent with a full life and great family.  He does not know the princess thinks of him as a frog, as she only speaks of it with others, not him.

The Princess has become consumed by details that really don't matter in the matters of love and friendship and happiness.  When and why did this happened?  Those close to her have became curious about what short-comings they might have that the Princess feels are not to her standards.  Short-comings she must justify to herself and others ~ 

I just recently met this particular Princess.  My heart aches, so I must write.